A good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination. -Nelson Mandela

So today I am going to be completely and utterly honest about some of the people I love and am really close to... All names are changed.
Okay, if any of these are about you, please don't be mad or think I'm trying to get back at you or am trying to change anything, these are just my thoughts I'm too chicken to say aloud and am afraid to think sometimes. If you really don't want to know the complete truth I would look away now.

TallMan: Okay, we're not really close anymore, but I wish we were. We used to hang out all the time, until you  started getting taller and filling out and getting older, and now it seems like you're to cool for me now. I used to have a huge crush on you but you were dumb and would subconsciously flirt with me which drove me crazy. Everyone would tease us and you'd just get red, and it just pushed you away... What happened? I miss you.
Henry makes me feel like such a loser, but I guess I kind of am at the high school. Which I hate, I hate being ugly and awkward.

FunSize: Girl you are like my sister. I love it when I am able too help you get through stuff and cheer you up and help. I miss being around you. You are so convinced you're weird and no very good looking, but dear you are so fucking elegant and sooo fucking pretty you have no idea and it makes me mad and kind of jealous sometimes. You doubt youself so much sometimes, and I wish you could beleive in youself sometimes and really see your amazing genious self.
I know it shouldn't, but it bugs me when you talk about your "Facebook Family" and such, because you would go on and on aobut how wonderful they are and I know I shouldn't, but it makes me jealous that you got that close to them while drifting further from me. I swear, sometimes I am the worst person on the earth.

Ralayne: Gosh you are so gorgeous and I secretly hate you for it. You go on and on aout how big your thighs are and how fat you are, but you are the perfect fucking size and I get so jealous cause you have the perfect thigh size, the perfect wrists that aren't real fat but aren't so weirdly scrawny like mine and your boobs are the perfect size and your hair is so gorgeous and I get so jealous because you don't get many pimples and you look pretty even right after we work out.
But adii girl you drive me crazy because you will completely ignore me sometimes and when we do hang out you don't always listen because you are always on your phone, but you never text me back. I get so jealous when you talk about hanging out with your friends and the fun times you had with all them guys, and it makes me feel like even more or a loser and a low life, because even when you do invite me (which is never, now) I feel like the loser tag-a-long. All them boys always end up liking you, and I can't figure out why no one will notice me that isn't a loser! I am becoming such a jealous bitch it's not even funny. You always talk about Jake being your best friend and stuff and I always get a pang of jealousy (yeah, I'm kind of a jealous bitch) because I so dearly want to get back closer with you, because I see you as my best friend.

BohemianPrincess: Oh, dear Margaret. Sometimes I swear you hate me and hate spending time with me, but you always run up when you see me on front street to give me a hug. I'm glad you got that babysitting job with my co-worker!
Gosh girl you are so tiny and hang out with guys so easily, and you are so shy it's cute. I'm pretty sure you don't realize how beautiful you are. I swear, your hair is like a goddesss's, and your facial shape is gorg.
It is kind of hard sometimes to hang out with you because you don't really like to talk very much, but sometimes that's okay, and we have so much fun!

Helga: Gosh I love you. Like seriously, SO MUCH. I love that you're always game to hang out or run, and you're always ready to run hard, get muddy, or go to the beach with me. I'm going to miss you. I'm going to feel like such a low life while you're gone, because you are one of the main people I hang out with and I'm going to be a hermit on the weeknights. I absolutely love that you are so delighted to see me all the time, it makes me happy.:]
Sometimes you get a little embarrassing or crazy, but that's also one of the things I love about you. It infuriates me sometimes when you and Catherine get really buddy buddy because I end up feeling really left out, which you wouldn't think would be a prolem because I'm already left out of eveything. Your hair is the most gorgeous hair, love. If you ever thought about cutting it, it would look nice in pretty much any haircut. I hate your hair and it's non-frizziness.

TheLady: Oh, lady. You're too old and it's scaring me.  You are so sweet! You are so loud and outgoing and friends with all them guys, and I sort of get jelly. You're getting old and it's not cool because you're leaving! :'( But you keep drifting further from me and I miss being close to you.
Girl, you are so sweet and I love that you listen to my rants and can relate to me with annoying brothers. I hate you for how much raw beauty you have without even trying, and how much you don't give a fuck about what other people think about you.

Please don't be mad about anything I said.
I love you all,
Ro

Never take anything for granted. -Benjamin Disraeli

Whale whale whale...
I don't know why I just said that...
Well, I SHOULD be going to sleep right now, but of course I get inspired to write on here.
So some exciting stuff happening! And some.. Not so exciting stuff.
Let start with the good! I get my braces off in four weeks! Finally free of these shackles!
I'm also stoked to start my job at the public library tomorrow, awesome sauce!
My mom's been going through some stuff recently, 'cause her lung were all filled with fluids from when she was sick, which made it hard for her to breathe which brought her blood pressure up, and there's a cyst or something somewhere (I don't remember where) but they're pretty certain it's not cancer or anything to worry about... I'm definitely praying, she'll know tomorrow morning.
But on a brighter note, today was a pretty good day! And productive!
My morning was pretty lazy, but I went to school, got back and started cleaning (my mom had left a list or chores) so I unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, washed all the cups that had gross leftover residue (which was a LOT of cups), swept and washed the floors, swept the porches, and wiped down the staircase walls. After I was done cleaning my friend Helga came over and hung out for a bit, and then we went running... I ran with Helga, Sweater, and Texas., and then after we went running we decided to go to my house for some oreo pie that I made... And then my other friend FunSize. who I have known for FOREVER texted me and told me she was in town for a bit so she came too, and it was super random but fun.(: But then after everyone left but the FunSize, and we hung out and talked serious and talked silly and had fun(: Gosh I love that girl's guts. But yeah, yay friends and running. <3
rosa

The smallest act of kindness is worth more than the grandest intention. -Oscar Wilde

Well, I got a nice surpise today! During the Iditarod I went to the meet the mushers and for the Nugget Iditarod edition newspaper and went through and got a few signed. And by request of my sister, I sent one to her for her to give to her friend, whose mom was a 4th grade teacher of a class that waws learning about the Iditarod and following it. So I gues siit went over pretty wel with them, because I got an envelope in today from them filled with hand written ADORABLE thank you cards, and a t-shirt from their school with all their signatures on the back. It's cool to know small things that you do make a difference.:)
So other then that, things are still crazy and will be for a while. Oh dear. I just love how my weekends fill themselves up! Although this week it will be fun, because tomorrow I'm going pledging with Helga, going for a run and going with a bunch of people to watch a play out local drama club put together. Saturday is the Ski-2-Sea, and Sunday I am FINALLY going to go watch THE HUNGER GAMES! Hopefully I'll get a bunch of people to go then. Yay for fun weekends!

Toodles!