i'm lazy

So because I am so lazy and I'm not up to writing full on posts yet, but I need to get back in the habit of writing on here, I'm going to do a photo challenge with a little writing each day. Yes, I know it's 6 days late.
Oh well.

Day 1: Something beginning with a "C"

"Collage." My senior pictures!
This is for my graduation announcements. Boy, I'm ready to be done with high school.

Day 2: Color

My eye color. Hazel? I think?

Day 3: Breakfast

I jokes. I wish this was my breakfast every day, though. Mmm.

Day 4: TV

I don't watch much TV. Pretty much the only show in my life right now is Supernatural.

Day 5: 5 o'clock

I don't have any recent photos, but my 5 o'clock usually consists of this. Schoolwork.

Day 6: A favorite thing.

Running. Definitely.
It's become a way of life. I miss it.

why do i even try to keep up

Crap, I am a poopie.
I ditched this poor blog all summer, and here I am, crawling back on my last first day of high school. A LOT has happened, but not really. Kind of.
Well summer got out and then I decided I like punishment so I headed to a college in Alaska to spend my precious summer taking 10 college credits. Good lord, lets just say it sucked. I had the pleasure of taking Math 106, in which I spent 5-7 hours on math PER DAY. Yay me. And then I returned home to disgusting rainy cold weather for a few weeks, slumming it until my next excursion, going to Idaho for a running camp. Well, I attended that sweltering hot camp, came back, slummed it for a bit more and now, here I am. Back in the saddle of school. I did, however, take this wonderful college English class that I absolutely loved. My next post will be a story I made up for the class.
But alas until next time when I have time,
Stay classy San Diego.

i don't even know

It feels like I’ve been put in another Rosa’s body doing normal Rosa things and saying non Rosa things, and it’s just not clicking for me. Rosa has too much in her brain. All she wants to do in run and run for miles and only focus on my sore feet and chilly breath. She wants to clear her brain, just to shake out all the fuzzy things.

tips from one high school runner to another.

So I figured I would write down some of the wisdom over my years of running. Here goes:
The pre-race basics:

1) Drink a crap-ton of water. No joke, 6 oz. every half hour the day before and a few hours before the race start slowing down so you don't have to pee during the race (BAD, BAD IDEA. (I've had to learn this one the hard way...)) 

2) Eat a small, but hearty/healthy meal the day before. Fish is probably the best thing you could possibly eat, and you could pair it with something else to make it more filling like scallops. Make sure to eat 2 different kinds of veggies, one cooked and one raw (like roasted brussel sprouts and cucumbers.) The day of make sure you eat SOMETHING, but not too much that it will stay in your stomach. Bananas and bagels are my favorite. 

3) VISUALIZE. I know everybody keeps saying that, and I didn't really listen or get it until this year, but visualize your course, how you will push up hills and flats, think about the pain you'll feel and the pain in your chest from breathing so hard and the dizziness in your head from oxygen deprivation. Visualize the end of your race and your kick. What helps me is to think "Who wants it more?" 

During the race:

4) You have to mentally prepare yourself to destroy your opponents. Don't show your pain. Accept it, but don't let them know you're hurting just as much as you. It tricks your mind and your opponent into thinking you're not actually hurting. 

5) Be ruthless. Don't be afraid to push past someone for the better spot in the course. 

6) Last of all, own the race. Not being cocky, but know this is YOUR RACE. You have to know this will be your best race yet.

I am teenage living in this teen age.

So I updated my about me... And this happened.

I am Rosa.
I am a runner, skiier, snowshoer.
I am a smeller and chewer 
A ponderer, a doubter 
A friend, a sister and a daughter.
I am a best friend, moral support,
A last resort a liver, a giver, a taker,
A maker, a breaker,
I am a babysitter, a librarian,
A barbarian, (not really) 
A teacher, a student
Looking for improvement 
I am a human.
I am a illusion. 
I am teenage living in the teen age. 

For cereal?

So...

So.
 Lately it seems like I cannot make up my mind. One minute I'm rocking a hair-do or outfit, and the next I will totally doubt myself and get uber self-conscious and stuff. What's up with that?
Adii.

So I raced yesterday! Not my  best race ever, but I got fourth behind three girls from a 4A school, and their team got first for 4A, so I'm not extremely upset. It just  bugs me because I feel like I could have done better.

This past weekend I went to watch  the wrestling matches, and got to scope out some cute guys.;) Oh good gosh I am theee worst, but who can blame a girl for noticing when guys are walking around shirtless?! Mmmmm.
Haha.                                                  -Ro

"It's a hill. Get over it."

Oops! I forgot to mention running!
Last weekend I got first in the region! Weuuu! So I'm leaving for state Thursday(:

Whoah.

Sooooo. A lot has happened.

First off: my race last week! It went okay, I had side stitch but still won by about 40 seconds. The course was INSAANE.
This past weekend I went with my team to Anchorage to compete with the bigger Anchorage schools, and I came in 2nd place (13 seconds behind the top ranked runner in the region right now.) It was an awesome race, and I managed to not get side stitch and came home with a new PR of 19:54, 4 seconds faster than my state time last year.

But anyways.
Someone asked me to go see a move with him yesterday.

Yeah.

Crazy. The thing is, he is a quite popular senior that I've always been kind of friends with and worked with him this summer, so I was (and am) a little skeptical. I asked him what brought on asking me to a movie all the sudden and he said some sweet (but gushy) thing about me being attractive and whatnot. I am a little afraid this might be some sort of bet or something he has with his friends. My teammate had something similar happen to her.

I'm kind of afraid to be too excited.
I'm also kind of afraid, because I don't really have much experience in the dating arena... I am also afraid of my parents.
And my siblings.

They are embarrassing.

While we were texting, he mentioned in a cute way that he wants to find out if I'm a good kisser or not..
Am I?
I've only kissed one other person in my lifetime, and I barely remember it I was so nervous.

Plus, there's the fact that I am awkward.
Very, very awkward.
But we'll see how things go.

Caio for now, <-- look at me, getting all poetic
Rosa

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it. -Confucius

So recently I've had a wake up call from what my friend Beatrice said to me. I don't remember her exact  writing, but one piece of word really stuck with me. She said that 1) I need to realize that I shouldn't put myself down so much and 2) I can't chamge how I look, so might as well embrace it and act with confidence.
Take my huge nose for example: I'll just think of it as adding contours to my face. My flat chest? All the better for running, plus I honestly don't care if people think my boobs are small, so what? My big feet? Spreads out the surface area for impact while running. +Higher heels without my feet hurting as much?
Screw other people's opinions, man. Plus, all them guys of my running team are like my bros. Plus they let me steal their heat and sleep on them without any weirdness.(:
It still kind of sucks, but screw it.

It has taken me FOREVER to write this! I have been SO SO SO busy with running, babysitting, work and school, it's not even funny. This week I put in about 29 miles! Pluuus I ran two community races this week.

Bonjour,
Rosa

A lifetime of training for just ten seconds. [20 minutes] -Jesse Owens

So recently, I've actually had a life. Well, at least on weekends.
Shocker, right?
This past 6 or 7 weeks have been awesome!
I've gone to salmon lake and bridge jumped, hiked to Dorthy Falls, hiked some more, ran races, fireweed picked, gone tundra tea picking, had movie nights, had bonfires, gone swimming, gone out to eat and gone fishing!
Last year, the interns for the day camp type thingy we're all pretty uppity and stuff, but this year they were all so much fun! I made friends with all of them, pretty much.
Most weekdays I was stuck working and running, but pretty much every day all weekend I would go do stuff, despite most of my friends being out of town travelling and doing fun stuff.  I also made friends with some other cool highschoolers. I've also gotten the oppurtunity to go driving a lot, so I've gotten practice driving out of town, in town, and on our one highway. I'm not quite ready for summer to end and for reality (and school) to set in. I am so crazy far behind, it terrifies me.

On  brighter note, XC started Monday! I lalalaloooove running <3
We have SO many people on our team!

Never take anything for granted. -Benjamin Disraeli

Whale whale whale...
I don't know why I just said that...
Well, I SHOULD be going to sleep right now, but of course I get inspired to write on here.
So some exciting stuff happening! And some.. Not so exciting stuff.
Let start with the good! I get my braces off in four weeks! Finally free of these shackles!
I'm also stoked to start my job at the public library tomorrow, awesome sauce!
My mom's been going through some stuff recently, 'cause her lung were all filled with fluids from when she was sick, which made it hard for her to breathe which brought her blood pressure up, and there's a cyst or something somewhere (I don't remember where) but they're pretty certain it's not cancer or anything to worry about... I'm definitely praying, she'll know tomorrow morning.
But on a brighter note, today was a pretty good day! And productive!
My morning was pretty lazy, but I went to school, got back and started cleaning (my mom had left a list or chores) so I unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, washed all the cups that had gross leftover residue (which was a LOT of cups), swept and washed the floors, swept the porches, and wiped down the staircase walls. After I was done cleaning my friend Helga came over and hung out for a bit, and then we went running... I ran with Helga, Sweater, and Texas., and then after we went running we decided to go to my house for some oreo pie that I made... And then my other friend FunSize. who I have known for FOREVER texted me and told me she was in town for a bit so she came too, and it was super random but fun.(: But then after everyone left but the FunSize, and we hung out and talked serious and talked silly and had fun(: Gosh I love that girl's guts. But yeah, yay friends and running. <3
rosa

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

So, this month has been crazy...
Oh, you want to hear what I've been up to?
*Deep breath*
Weeeeeeeeeeell...
Since last month I've beendoing lots of planning and prepping, I was applying for a biathlon rifle to practice marksmanship, I was planning JROTC's military ball, I was lining up a job at the public library for this summer, I was applying for working at a day camp again, I was  running and doing school. And theeeen, I left Nome behind for a week and a half.
My trip:
My mom, TheBoy and I flew into Anchorage and hopped on the road and drove for 8 hours to Fairbanks, and I got to stop by the dorms and hang out with GhostBaby, and then we went and crashed at our hotel.
The next few days went by fast with arguements, Graduations, and helping GhostBaby pack up his dorm... P.S., it was pretty cool to hang out in the dorm room.
After that we drove to Delta Junction to visit with my brother and his fiancee, and we went out for a nice dinner and ooooof course everyone was arguing. Again. But we love eachother. My mom, my sister, and my brother's fiancee and I went to the cute little bed and breakfast and stayed in a fancy cabin.
The next day, we went on the road (AGAIN) and drove back to Anchorage.
Folloing some rest at the hotel, we hopped in the van and went to David's Bridal to pick out a bridesmaid dress for me... THAT was a weird expirience for me, because you can't evaluate the dress prior to exiting the dressing room because there's no mirror, so you could look stupid and not knw it until everyone else has seen you. After that we went to Men's Wrehouse and then drove to Alyeska so my mom could check out the wedding venue.
The following day was flying day to go to Portland, and we got to visit my grandparents.
Friday we got to go to the Nike Employee Store and I got hooked up with a crap ton of gear which I REALLY needed. And then we got to go to Ross Dress for Less and got real cute and cheap stuff there. Anf then I got to run and go swimming(:
The next day was the graduation party at my aunt's really nice house, and let me tell you: my family rocks...
So my cousins are all quite older than me, and most are over 21. So the start playing beer pong RIGHT beside my aunts and uncles and grandparents... And then my DAD walks over and asks to be taught how to play... The day was filled with hanging out with lots of family and ping pong and basketball and frisbee with silly names. I love my family.

...Which brings me to today, and I'm finally sitting home in my own house, and I have a job interveiw, receiveing and shooting my rifle and meeting with BossLady about my job at the library and the last week of school!

So... Yeah. Life has been busy.

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you will land among the stars. -Les Brown

Can I just say I love running on sunny days?
Well I do.

2 1/2 more weeks until Fairbanks/Oregon! :D

It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer. -Albert Einstein

The inspection... The inspection. It went... Okay. The inspector is kind of a a-hole. 

Well, I did pretty good for my staff section! And afterwards I ran the four miles home from school in about half an hour, which is pretty good!:)
My mood has improved quite a lot, and my skin is FINALLY starting to clear up a bit! *knock on wood*
Plus my hair has been nice! Anyways, I'm pretty tired. I had youth court today which was SO awkward.
So anyways, tomorrow I have staff meeting and a run, Friday I have pledging for ski team, and a workout, Saturday is the Ski-2-Sea, Monday I meet with my new client for youth court and have a workout, Tuesday I need to go take my permit test,  Wednesday I have National Honor Society practice (still haven't memorized that pledge :S) , Thursday I have staff meeting, then I need to pretty up and go to the induction ceremony for NHS. This is going to be a busy week!
Goodnight!

If you fail to prepare, prepare to fail. - Steve Prefontaine

I wast kidding in my last post.
I feel like I owe it to my blog to post something awesome, because my last two were short.

The gun sounds
My heart pounds
Trampling of feet
I've got to beat
Passing a few,
Still feeling new
Moving forward;
Running toward
Thinking of the goal,
With my mind, heart & soul
Through the course
Determination is my force
Gaining speed
In the lead
Near the finish
Energy starting to diminish
Tape is waiting
The people stating
You're done.
You've won.

-Written by yours truely, probably the only good poetry i will/have write/written.

rosa<3

Small minds are concerned with the extraordinary, great minds are concerned with the ordinary. -Blaise Pascal

It quite annoys me how full
of themselves a lot of high
school girls are. I mean
seriously, I do not need to
see their face and boobs in
a picture every day. Have
they no shame? I would be
SO embarrassed if pictures
like that of me went on the
internet, and they just
choose to. I'm not really
ranting, but this was on my
mind today. And, they have
to wear make up all the time
in order to look "pretty".
They also are so convinced
they are the best thing in my
high school...Which doesn't
make me feel too bad about
being average or jealous of
them, because I know I am
going to go on to do bigger
and better things. Wow,
this is turning into a rant. But
seriously, I'm not angry. I'm
actually pretty fine with my
status in high school for the
most part. I have awesome
college times to look
forward to.

On a brighter note, IT WAS THIRTY DEGREES TODAY!
I actually got to go for a four mile run, it was glorious!

❥, rosa

A lot of people run a race to see who’s the fastest. I run to see who has the most guts. - Steve Prefontaine

I'm not all average, how about sports?

 I  placed  3rd  for high school 1-2-3A 

  girls  for  cross country running, that's 

   not   too  average,  and  I'm  going  to 

    Canada  to  compete  in  a  snowshoe 

     race,  and  I  won skimeister for cross
      country skiing. That's not too average,
        right? 

         Sports  isn't  everything,  although  it's
          gotten    me    most    of   my   friends,
           matured      me,     and     given     me
            experiences  I  cannot  even  begin  to
             talk  about.  I  have  some  of the best,
              and some of the worst memories from
                it.
                 It's given me goals to work hard for.
                  So maybe looks don't matter too much,
                   high  school  isn't  everything.  I  plan to
                    run in college, and hopefully people will
                     see more in me then.
❤,rosa.

A thing of beauty is a joy forever: its loveliness increases; it will never pass into nothingness. -John Keats

I think I've come to terms with being average.

I mean, it's not too  bad,
besides the friendzoning,
being  overlooked,   not
having  too  much  of  a
choice  in  dudes,  being
unsure  of   myself,   not
feeling  too   remarkable
and whatnot.

Who am I kidding?
It kinda sucks in some ways, but
not all.
I mean,
Friendships don't get messed up,
I  am  not  suck  hanging  around
with snooty people all the time, I
can be a bro with my guy friends,
I stay  out of trouble, I don't care
if I join nerdy groups, I don't fear
having a bad hair day because no
one notices.
It's got it's ups and downs, but heck. I cannot really change anything.
And hey, I'm not average at everything. I'm  not  average  at running,
skiing,   snowshoeing,   multi-tasking,   being   someone   to  vent to/
shoulder to lean on & working hard.

farewell.
-rosa.♡