It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer. -Albert Einstein

The inspection... The inspection. It went... Okay. The inspector is kind of a a-hole. 

Well, I did pretty good for my staff section! And afterwards I ran the four miles home from school in about half an hour, which is pretty good!:)
My mood has improved quite a lot, and my skin is FINALLY starting to clear up a bit! *knock on wood*
Plus my hair has been nice! Anyways, I'm pretty tired. I had youth court today which was SO awkward.
So anyways, tomorrow I have staff meeting and a run, Friday I have pledging for ski team, and a workout, Saturday is the Ski-2-Sea, Monday I meet with my new client for youth court and have a workout, Tuesday I need to go take my permit test,  Wednesday I have National Honor Society practice (still haven't memorized that pledge :S) , Thursday I have staff meeting, then I need to pretty up and go to the induction ceremony for NHS. This is going to be a busy week!
Goodnight!

An optimist is a guy that has never had much experience. -Don Marquis

Fake it 'til you make it. 

Pretty much my life story right now. I have to just go through the motions of high school until college, where I know it will get better. I am so glad I have something to motivate myself...

Seriously, I freaking HATE PMS with a passion. I hate being all emotional and stuff. It's buggy.

Anyways, I had just THE BEST day today! *note sarcastic tone* I got to go to the dentist for my braces, but the guy, who was just changing out a freaking POWER CHAIN, 1) took forever 2) didn't have the right tools 3) is really careless and rough, and 4) doesn't do this very often. So a had him GRIPPING at my face try to get the rubber bands on, and digging into my gums, to the point where they had to start dabbing the blood away. 

SERIOUSLY?! Just have your effing assistant do it, she is 10x better! Meanwhile I'm trying not to cry as they stab me with pointy things! So, of course that was a fun time... So, the entire time I was looking forward to a tiny peice of amazing brownie to eat when I got home to get rid of the taste of blood and find that my freaking pig brother ate HALF THE PAN! Meaning, there was none left. At all. So, I crawled into bed and bawled for a while 'cause my gums were still bleeding and my mouth hurt and I was being emotional and feeling crappy, and then had to try to pull it together to go to school. So I slappedd some makeup on and put my hair up so I would at least look average, and had to go through the motions of class, and I got to stress about the inspection for JROTC tomorrow by spending 2 hours in the supply room cleaning. After that, I went over for a National Honor Society meeting and got to stress over memorizing something, adn then got to go to a meeting for JROTC and got to sttress about a presentation I'm supposed to do tomomorrow. Fun! So I take the bus home and am taking my usual shortcut, except everything is melting so I sink in up to my thigh! Which wouldn't have been to bad except I was wearing Chuck's and jeans, so my jeans got wet and my kicks got full of snow and almost got stuck in the snow a couple times. 

God I have this town. 

But yeah. That's it for whining today! 

On the bright side, well... Um. 

I guess one thing to look forward to is going to Fairbanks and the lower 48 in a few weeks. 

Yay. 

I'm so tired of acting happy all the freaking time. 

Toodles.

Everything has been figured out, except how to live. -Jean-Paul Sartre

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There has been SO much going on this last month! So, a run down:

WMO: Still sick, placed 2nd both days. Super fun otherwise, other then coughing so hard one night I puked.
WISA: Second place the first day only EIGHTEEN SECONDS behind TheLady-_-, and fourth for the biathlon...Not my best race. But next year I'm going to go at it hard, skiing on my off days, doing ab and arm work, etc.  And this summer I am going to shoot lots!
I've also been helping with the ADORABLE fourth graders, and it makes me super  happy how excited they are about skiing.

After I got back from Galena the following week I had HSGQE's, which were a bundle of joy... NOT. It helped me realize how far behind I still am for math, yikes. But yeah, those were long and grueling.

And THEN, I have been attending Youth Court meetings, and staff mettings for JROTC. I have had SO much work to do because I fell very very behind when I missed all those meetings for ski practices, and our super important formal inspection is Tuesday.
Annnd, on top of that, I've had to write an essay and fill out an application for National Honor Society. But I got accepted!
In my very near future I get to look forward to memorizing a pledge, going to NHS practices, and studying for my permit test! Oh dear.
So in short, life has been crazy.
So up at the emotional front, I've been having to deal with bad hair days, pimples, and grandma that had a heart attack. I spent one night crying myself to sleep. Not a fun night.
I can't help but feel very average lately. Maybe guys don't dig me because I'm not easy? 'Cause I don't flirt with everyone I see? Because I'm ugly? Because I don't show my boobs? Because I friendzone people? I wanna shout in their faces that if they like me, JUST GET THE GUTS TO TELL ME. Goodness.

P.S., here are some pictures!

 
Well, goodnight. Or morning, whatever floats your boat.