Failure is success if we learn from it. -Malcolm Forbes

Okay so here you go future self: my day, yesterday, February 27th.
So I got up at 6:50-7:00-ish and got all my crap together and finally convinced my mom to take me to the school instead of making me talk the bus... Weeeeeell, the night before it had been blowing snow and such, so we had hard crusted snowdrifts, which I didn't think would be too bad... Man was I ever wrong! Mom drove the car about halfway through it and got us stuck... We tried for about 10 minutes to dig it out and such, but I was already late, so we walked over and used her work car.
I thankfully arrived with a few minutes to spare. The first round we did pretty well, but I was SO tense the entire time! We only missed two questions out of 64. We got a lunch break and such after about 2 hours of battling and found out we made it to round 2. It was pretty awesome because I know two other people battling for other teams that we were with.  Round two went awesome too, and we got the same score as the first round, putting us in 3rd place. After that second round, we were all pretty frazzled after answering 128 questions, but we made it to the 3rd and final round. The third round was BRUTAL. We missed 5 out 16 questions. We were all fried, but we got 4th place! Which is pretty much the best my town has ever done.
RIGHT after I got home, I headed over for a four and a half hour period of babysitting a four year old and a one year old.
I was tired, and my legs hurt from being so tense and my knees were swollen. But it was a good day!
Off to rotate laundry and start packing for my 12 day trip! :D

-Rosa☀

P.S... 2 more days!

All things are difficult before they are easy. -Thomas Fuller

I know, I know. I suck. Tomorrow, I promise!
I just had an 11 hour day, cut me some slack.

-Rosa

A woman whose smile is open and whose expression is glad has a kind of beauty no matter what she wears. -Anne Roiphe

I am a awful person. Dear goodness I have been forgetting to write on here!
Life has been crazy the last couple days getting paperwork finished, skiing, showshoeing schoolwork, reading, reading and more reading!
My Battle of the Books battle is tomorrow! Hopefully we will dominate and make it to the third round, otherwise i will have read 12 books and re-read 6 for nothing...
Oh dear. Tomorrow, hopefully, I will have a long post talking about the battle and such. I'm too tired to write much tonight.
5 more days!
-Rosaت

Growing up, I wanted desperately to please, to be a good girl. -Claire Danes

So yesterday, my mother said something that just about sums up everyone's expectations for me...
"[my brother, who has dyslexia] did that good, so you need to do better, because you don't have it as hard as him"
Great. What, me? Under pressure? No.
I'm just the youngest of 5 other siblings who have all pretty much succeeded: One is engaged, has a steady job and is living on his own. One is going to PRE MED, one is majoring is broadcasting and just made the deans list. One works SO HARD for EVERYTHING he has, and has lots of money saved up for his time in college.
Seriously? What more do I have to live up to?!
Oh yeah, my coaches my SUPER high expectations too, as well as my teams and friends and family members.
I supposed I have a fear of failing, which is why I don't like to try new things in front of other people.
everyone thinks everything comes easy for me, which is bulls***. School is hard for me to understand and I ALWAYS work hard when I work out. Which is why I like going places where no one know the rest of my family, so they don't make assumptions of "how I am" and who I am. I can just go and be Rosa. Not one of my older siblings little sister, but just me.

P.S. T minus nine days!

The purpose of life is a life of purpose. -Robert Byrne

More poetry. I am too tired to talk about life right now, other then the countdown begins! I leave for Canada in T minus 10 days!

where am going?
life isn't slowing
for me to figure out
so i can get rid of this doubt

but maybe i never will
i'll stop when i've had my fill
i will tell god "enough"
this life is rough

but i think i'll wait
i haven't filled my plate
i have places to be
people need to hear me

at least for now
until i figure out how
to live
this world has plenty to give

i need to leave
to roam where i please
maybe not yet
but soon, i bet

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on. -Robert Frost

Okay, so I was inspired by some poetry I was reading today. Don't hate, I suck at poetry.

I am trapped
in this teenage body
my life? Unmapped.

Waiting to spread my wings
waiting for whats next;
what life brings .

It's God's joke to me
as is to say,
"Tee-hee,"

"What a funny sight!
A drowning girl,
fighting with all her might."

But I will go places.
I'll get into this world.
I will remove these braces.

I have hard work,
goals and dreams.
I will pop this cork,

explode out of this shell!
Of my future?
There's no way to tell.

I have a long way to go.
I can only hope
the good moments pass slow.

Lebewohl,
-rosa

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same. -Elbert Hubbard

Don't you love/hate/love those moments when you can NOT stop giggling? Even in the WORST places? Some of the most pure forms of joy I have. Wait, of course I do... I am talking to myself.

Nothing to do here...

Kidding. Thankfully I find myself funny.

But I really do love giggling, the kind that rolls out of me.

On the other side of things, I hate feeling helpless when I am not able to cheer people up. It's awful to think of the sadness they are feeling. 

What I'm really trying to talk about is friends. These are the wonderful ups and downs to friendship. You give and take, so the average is always the same, that's what makes best friends. I am SO lucky to have several best friends that put up with my bossy-awkward-loud-obnoxious-weird Rosa self. Sometimes, actually a lot, I really do doubt myself and ask WHY THE HECK DO THEY LIKE ME?! But it is because they are wonderful people. I try to return the wonderfulness with honesty and help and advice and compliments. What more can I do?

Like I said, the average is always the same. What goes up, must come down. What goes down, must come up.
=Life.

I really should  go slumber.
De beaux rêves,
-rosa