The pity party continues...

Oh yeah! And I won my two races this weekend. Not that guys care about running skills, plus I always look like crap when I run.

God, I am so petty.

I you cannot already tell, I'm kind of in a funk.

Jealousy is a terrible thing. Which is why I am terrible.

So we all have that one friend that is pretty much better than us at everything... right?
Well, I do.
She is one of my best friends in the world, but she sometimes makes me feel so ugly compared to her.
Don't get me wrong, she always is amazing and compliments me and stuff, it's just. Yeah. I don't even compare to her.
She has the cutest little feet, skinny but not scrawny legs, a cute belly (she's skinnier than me, and eats healthier, too.) nicely shaped arms and hands (she's stronger...) a cute shaped face, pretty eyes, a normal shaped nose, and beautiful hair. All the guys in this freaking town have liked her (or have kind of dated her) and she is so good around guys.
It kills me every time I see more guys (and guys I think are cute but don't notice me) flirting with her. It seriously makes me feel like dirt. I wish I could just yell "HELLO! THERE'S SOME BEAUTIFUL SOMEWHERE IN HERE!"
Yeah,,, I'm having a pity party up in my crib.
Blah.
Also, I've got PMS.
Also also, haha I've gotten too lazy to look up more quotes. So yeah.

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it. -Confucius

So recently I've had a wake up call from what my friend Beatrice said to me. I don't remember her exact  writing, but one piece of word really stuck with me. She said that 1) I need to realize that I shouldn't put myself down so much and 2) I can't chamge how I look, so might as well embrace it and act with confidence.
Take my huge nose for example: I'll just think of it as adding contours to my face. My flat chest? All the better for running, plus I honestly don't care if people think my boobs are small, so what? My big feet? Spreads out the surface area for impact while running. +Higher heels without my feet hurting as much?
Screw other people's opinions, man. Plus, all them guys of my running team are like my bros. Plus they let me steal their heat and sleep on them without any weirdness.(:
It still kind of sucks, but screw it.

It has taken me FOREVER to write this! I have been SO SO SO busy with running, babysitting, work and school, it's not even funny. This week I put in about 29 miles! Pluuus I ran two community races this week.

Bonjour,
Rosa

A lifetime of training for just ten seconds. [20 minutes] -Jesse Owens

So recently, I've actually had a life. Well, at least on weekends.
Shocker, right?
This past 6 or 7 weeks have been awesome!
I've gone to salmon lake and bridge jumped, hiked to Dorthy Falls, hiked some more, ran races, fireweed picked, gone tundra tea picking, had movie nights, had bonfires, gone swimming, gone out to eat and gone fishing!
Last year, the interns for the day camp type thingy we're all pretty uppity and stuff, but this year they were all so much fun! I made friends with all of them, pretty much.
Most weekdays I was stuck working and running, but pretty much every day all weekend I would go do stuff, despite most of my friends being out of town travelling and doing fun stuff.  I also made friends with some other cool highschoolers. I've also gotten the oppurtunity to go driving a lot, so I've gotten practice driving out of town, in town, and on our one highway. I'm not quite ready for summer to end and for reality (and school) to set in. I am so crazy far behind, it terrifies me.

On  brighter note, XC started Monday! I lalalaloooove running <3
We have SO many people on our team!