Saturday, April 28, 2012

Just a rundown.

So today I'm going to look up and give a brief description of everyone I have quoted.
Much more fun than doing my History homework...
So from oldest to newest:

"A thing of beauty is a joy forever: its loveliness increases; it will never pass into nothingness."
John Keats : English romantic poet.

"A lot of people run a race to see who’s the fastest. I run to see who has the most guts."
Steve Prefontane: Only one of the greatest runners of all time...

"Hope the best, expect the worst, life's a play and we are unrehearsed."
Dr. Suess: Um, amazing book writer?!

"May you live all the days of your life."
Johnathan Swift: Satirist, essayist, political pamphleteer, poet. In one of his essays, he writes that that the Irish should eat their own children. Oh, the irony.

"Everybody is a genius, but if you judge a fish by its ability too climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."
Einstein: You know who Einstein is.

"Small minds are concerned with the extraordinary, great minds are concerned with the ordinary."
Blaise Pascal: Frenchman. Mathematician, inventor,  physicist, writer and philosopher.

"You can't win unless you learn how to lose."
Kareem Abdul-Jabbar: Professional b-baller.

"You can't put a limit on anything. The more you dream, the farther you get."
Michael Phelps: Won a crap-ton of medals during the Olympics. Crazy good swimmer.

"Honesty is the first chapter in the book of wisdom."
Thomas Jefferson: Past prez... You know, the declaration of independence and stuff?

"Always remember that the future comes one day at a time."
Dean Acheson: An American lawyer.

"Be obscure clearly."
E. B. White: Elwyn Brooks White, wrote for the New York Times.

"If you fail to prepare, prepare to fail."
Steve Prefontaine: Second quote by him.

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed."
Michael Jordan: Professional b-baller.

"A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same."
Elbert Hubbard: American writer, artist, publisher, and philosopher.

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."
Robert Frost: Famous poet.

"The purpose of life is a life of purpose."
Robert Byrne: He is a sports author, novelist, and journalist.

"Growing up, I wanted desperately to please, to be a good girl."
Claire Danes: Actress

"A woman whose smile is open and whose expression is glad has a kind of beauty no matter what she wears."
Anne Roiphe: American writer and journalist. Feminist.

"All things are difficult before they are easy."
Thomas Fuller: Writer and historian.

"Failure is success if we learn from it."
Malcolm Forbes: Publisher of Forbes magazine.

"A runner must run with dreams in his heart, not money in his pocket."
Emil Zatopek: Czech long-distance runner best known for winning three gold medals at the 1952 Summer Olympics.

"Everything has been figured out, except how to live."
Jean-Paul Sartre: French existentialist philosopher, playwright, novelist, screenwriter, political activist, biographer, and literary critic.

"An optimist is a guy that has never had much experience."
Don Marquis: Humorist and journalist.

"It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer."
Albert Einstein: ...

"The smallest act of kindness is worth more than the grandest intention."
Oscar Wilde: Oscar Fingal O'Flahertie Wills Wilde. Irish writer and poet.

"Life is wasted on the living."
Douglas Adams: Writer. Wrote 'Life, The Universe and Everything' and other books.

"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you will land among the stars."
Les Brown: Guitars, anyone?

Anyways, cherrio!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you will land among the stars. -Les Brown

Can I just say I love running on sunny days?
Well I do.

2 1/2 more weeks until Fairbanks/Oregon! :D

Life is wasted on the living. -Douglas Adams

I think I am Bozo the Clown and Yoda's lovechild.
I seem to have a knack for cheering people up, or providing insight into people's problems.
It feels good to help.
But, I sure with there was a Rosa for me!

I still feel ugly. Looking around at all these gorgeous girls, that are pretty inside and out, I feel so... Average. It sucks. And even if they're ugly on the inside, at least they're pretty, and have something for them. I just have... Trying to be nice.
Which sucks, because I am forever overlooked. Ugh. I just want to be wanted.
And even the average or okay-ish girls get guys that flirt with them and get boyfriends!

I hate high school.

Friday, April 20, 2012

The smallest act of kindness is worth more than the grandest intention. -Oscar Wilde

Well, I got a nice surpise today! During the Iditarod I went to the meet the mushers and for the Nugget Iditarod edition newspaper and went through and got a few signed. And by request of my sister, I sent one to her for her to give to her friend, whose mom was a 4th grade teacher of a class that waws learning about the Iditarod and following it. So I gues siit went over pretty wel with them, because I got an envelope in today from them filled with hand written ADORABLE thank you cards, and a t-shirt from their school with all their signatures on the back. It's cool to know small things that you do make a difference.:)
So other then that, things are still crazy and will be for a while. Oh dear. I just love how my weekends fill themselves up! Although this week it will be fun, because tomorrow I'm going pledging with Helga, going for a run and going with a bunch of people to watch a play out local drama club put together. Saturday is the Ski-2-Sea, and Sunday I am FINALLY going to go watch THE HUNGER GAMES! Hopefully I'll get a bunch of people to go then. Yay for fun weekends!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer. -Albert Einstein

The inspection... The inspection. It went... Okay. The inspector is kind of a a-hole. 
Well, I did pretty good for my staff section! And afterwards I ran the four miles home from school in about half an hour, which is pretty good!:)
My mood has improved quite a lot, and my skin is FINALLY starting to clear up a bit! *knock on wood*
Plus my hair has been nice! Anyways, I'm pretty tired. I had youth court today which was SO awkward.
So anyways, tomorrow I have staff meeting and a run, Friday I have pledging for ski team, and a workout, Saturday is the Ski-2-Sea, Monday I meet with my new client for youth court and have a workout, Tuesday I need to go take my permit test,  Wednesday I have National Honor Society practice (still haven't memorized that pledge :S) , Thursday I have staff meeting, then I need to pretty up and go to the induction ceremony for NHS. This is going to be a busy week!

Monday, April 16, 2012

An optimist is a guy that has never had much experience. -Don Marquis

Fake it 'til you make it. 
Pretty much my life story right now. I have to just go through the motions of high school until college, where I know it will get better. I am so glad I have something to motivate myself...
Seriously, I freaking HATE PMS with a passion. I hate being all emotional and stuff. It's buggy.

Anyways, I had just THE BEST day today! *note sarcastic tone* I got to go to the dentist for my braces, but the guy, who was just changing out a freaking POWER CHAIN, 1) took forever 2) didn't have the right tools 3) is really careless and rough, and 4) doesn't do this very often. So a had him GRIPPING at my face try to get the rubber bands on, and digging into my gums, to the point where they had to start dabbing the blood away. 
SERIOUSLY?! Just have your effing assistant do it, she is 10x better! Meanwhile I'm trying not to cry as they stab me with pointy things! So, of course that was a fun time... So, the entire time I was looking forward to a tiny peice of amazing brownie to eat when I got home to get rid of the taste of blood and find that my freaking pig brother ate HALF THE PAN! Meaning, there was none left. At all. So, I crawled into bed and bawled for a while 'cause my gums were still bleeding and my mouth hurt and I was being emotional and feeling crappy, and then had to try to pull it together to go to school. So I slappedd some makeup on and put my hair up so I would at least look average, and had to go through the motions of class, and I got to stress about the inspection for JROTC tomorrow by spending 2 hours in the supply room cleaning. After that, I went over for a National Honor Society meeting and got to stress over memorizing something, adn then got to go to a meeting for JROTC and got to sttress about a presentation I'm supposed to do tomomorrow. Fun! So I take the bus home and am taking my usual shortcut, except everything is melting so I sink in up to my thigh! Which wouldn't have been to bad except I was wearing Chuck's and jeans, so my jeans got wet and my kicks got full of snow and almost got stuck in the snow a couple times. 
God I have this town. 
But yeah. That's it for whining today! 
On the bright side, well... Um. 
I guess one thing to look forward to is going to Fairbanks and the lower 48 in a few weeks. 
I'm so tired of acting happy all the freaking time. 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

"Sometimes when I have a problem, I just sing, then I realize my voice is worse than my problem."

Sometimes, I just feel really ugly. Inside and out.

I have ugly thoughts about annoying children.
I have ugly thoughts about people.
I have ugly thoughts about myself.
I have ugly thoughts about this town.
I have ugly thoughts about sports.
I have ugly thoughts about ages.
I have ugly thoughts aboout dumb teens.

I have a ugly nose.
I have ugly teeth.
I have ugly arms.
I have ugly, weird legs.
I have ugly boobs.
I have ugly clothes.
I have ugly feet.
I have ugly hair.

I have ugly insecurities and fears.
I have an ugly personality.
I have an ugly voice.
I have a ugly want to always be complimented and praised.
I have a ugly want to please.
I have a ugly want to be wanted.

Sorry, this is depressing, but it's all true.

I keep trying to stop thinking and talking about guys, but why don't they like me?! Every single other friend I have has been whistled to, asked out, or SOMETHING.
I get weird and ugly stalkers.
I just want to feel beautiful.


Saturday, April 14, 2012

Everything has been figured out, except how to live. -Jean-Paul Sartre

There has been SO much going on this last month! So, a run down:

WMO: Still sick, placed 2nd both days. Super fun otherwise, other then coughing so hard one night I puked.
WISA: Second place the first day only EIGHTEEN SECONDS behind TheLady-_-, and fourth for the biathlon...Not my best race. But next year I'm going to go at it hard, skiing on my off days, doing ab and arm work, etc.  And this summer I am going to shoot lots!
I've also been helping with the ADORABLE fourth graders, and it makes me super  happy how excited they are about skiing.

After I got back from Galena the following week I had HSGQE's, which were a bundle of joy... NOT. It helped me realize how far behind I still am for math, yikes. But yeah, those were long and grueling.

And THEN, I have been attending Youth Court meetings, and staff mettings for JROTC. I have had SO much work to do because I fell very very behind when I missed all those meetings for ski practices, and our super important formal inspection is Tuesday.
Annnd, on top of that, I've had to write an essay and fill out an application for National Honor Society. But I got accepted!
In my very near future I get to look forward to memorizing a pledge, going to NHS practices, and studying for my permit test! Oh dear.
So in short, life has been crazy.
So up at the emotional front, I've been having to deal with bad hair days, pimples, and grandma that had a heart attack. I spent one night crying myself to sleep. Not a fun night.
I can't help but feel very average lately. Maybe guys don't dig me because I'm not easy? 'Cause I don't flirt with everyone I see? Because I'm ugly? Because I don't show my boobs? Because I friendzone people? I wanna shout in their faces that if they like me, JUST GET THE GUTS TO TELL ME. Goodness.

P.S., here are some pictures!
Well, goodnight. Or morning, whatever floats your boat.