Thursday, November 15, 2012

i'm kind of a messy person.


The sad thing is, is that it doesn't take very long at ALL for it to get this bad. And this picture doesn't even capture the worst spot.

Anyways, so tonight while attempting to gargle my mouthwash apparently I did it wrong because it started to slip down my throat! Ahh the burn-_-. Only me.

21. If you could fly or breathe under water what would you prefer?
22. Name a favorite sound, past or present.
Kids/Babies giggling.
23. I'm at my silliest when:
I'm around my close friends.
24. What do you love most about living in this country?
The people?
25. Once I ran away from home. Here's the story...
Well, one time I was super mad at my brother, so I decided to scare him and say I was running away, so I walked out of the house and hid in the grass 100 yards from my house. My mom was SO mad at me..
26. Would you dare to sleep in haunted house overnight?
I guess, as long as I wasn't alone!
27. What is the funniest story your mother tells about you?
Well, one time I got into the flour with my brother and was playing in it like a sandbox, complete with little piles of the stuff on my head.
28. You have to wear a t-shirt with one word on it for the rest of your life. Which word do you choose?
29.What is the farthest road trip you have taken? To where and how long was it?
Washington to Couer d'Lane, 6 and then 8 hours?
30. I still can't believe I once:
Went to a different country!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

there once was a girl,

There once was a girl that loves to read books about cheesy teen romances. She read them with longing, jealously, and wanting. Wanting to be somewhere that there weren't the same people at school every day and where the variety of people was better, where it is harder for the school to know your business. Jealousy for the beautiful girls that don't know their beauty or do and have guys left and right. For their effortlessness in situations. Longing for someone special to make me happy, longing for the confirmation I crave.
Now, this same girl has grown and aged and become more wise, but all those things she wanted she still wants. She wants to feel beautiful and not self conscious, she wants guys to see her for who she is. She wants to have that effortless grace and beauty. She wants to meet better, sweeter guys that she reads about in her books. The ones who don't drink and party and smoke pot, who don't flirt with anything that breathes. She wants that fictional perfect guy.
She's been trying to feel good about herself, but it is a daily struggle.
She blames the town, she blames her genetics, she blames God, and she blames herself.
"If only my nose was a little smaller," "My eyes more colorful,"
She just wishes she could change things.
It's poisonous. 
Change how she sees herself, how other people see her and change her surroundings. But she knows this wont happen overnight.
So she tries.
And tries. And it gets a little better, day by day.
She tries.

Friday, November 9, 2012

And to yourself you sometimes say "I never knew it was gonna be this way why didn't they tell me the day I was born?" -Bob Dylan

 I'm cheating again. 

11. What is your best personal characteristic?
Probably my kindness.
12. If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do?
Follow a guy around all day.
13. My biggest pet peeve is...
Being late.
14. Can you comfortably eat in a restaurant by yourself? Go to movie?
I don't think so.
15. What is the craziest (or stupidest) thing you have ever done?
I dropped a 100 lb. table on my toe and fractured it when I was about 8.
16. If you wrote a book about yourself...what would it be about?
My stupid adventures and embarrassing stories.
17. What is your best scar? Tell the story of how you got it.
My coolest one I have is on my elbow, I was at a friends house and they had this one bike that always made people crash, but me being the dumb kid I was decided to try and see for myself and I fell and cut my elbow and hands and hip.
18.  You have multiple personalities, describe some of them.
A) Mature, take charge Rosa B) Breaking lots of rules Rosa C) Around my closest friends Rosa D) Around strangers Rosa E) Around acquaintances Rosa F) Around old people Rosa G) In class Rosa
19. What is one thing about you people would be surprised to learn?
That I swear. A lot.
20. What takes you out of your comfort zone?
Crowds of people I don't know, having to wait without anything to do, dates.

Monday, November 5, 2012


Today I was brave.
My mom doesn't like ripped jeans.
I think they look kind  of cool.
So, I had an experiment  today.
And guess what? She didn't say a word.
I wore them with a classy toned down sweater to balance out the scruffy-ness.
Yep, I pretty much rock.
And of course being the smart Alaskan I was, I wore some leggings underneath to counter the cold weather.

I'm being a lazy-butt and not wanting to think of another story to tell you, so I shall just answer some and cheat and use prompts.
1. What was the best thing that happened to you this weekend?
Uhm, I got spending money. I ordered two pairs of shoes

2. What is your favorite color? List three adjectives to explain your choice
Yellow. Happy. Joy. Bright.

3. It's a very hot and muggy day. You desperately want something very cool and refreshing to quench your thirst and revitalize your body. What would you drink -- either make your own or store-bought.
Water FTW

4.  What would you leave in your will for the person you care about the most?
Everything I had.

5. What do you consider to the most valuable thing you own: when you were a child/now?
Child: My doll, Sandy. Couldn't sleep without her. Now: Probably my computer.

6. What's the kindest act you have ever seen done (either to/by you or another)?
Whenever someone helps an elder.

7. What makes you feel the most secure?

8. Who do you admire the most?
And my parents.

9. Have you ever had a reoccurring dream? What was it
Falling! Ugh all the time.

10. When was the last time you did something for the first time?  What was it?
I drove one handed for the first time today. 

Saturday, November 3, 2012

tips from one high school runner to another.

So I figured I would write down some of the wisdom over my years of running. Here goes:
The pre-race basics:
1) Drink a crap-ton of water. No joke, 6 oz. every half hour the day before and a few hours before the race start slowing down so you don't have to pee during the race (BAD, BAD IDEA. (I've had to learn this one the hard way...)) 
2) Eat a small, but hearty/healthy meal the day before. Fish is probably the best thing you could possibly eat, and you could pair it with something else to make it more filling like scallops. Make sure to eat 2 different kinds of veggies, one cooked and one raw (like roasted brussel sprouts and cucumbers.) The day of make sure you eat SOMETHING, but not too much that it will stay in your stomach. Bananas and bagels are my favorite. 
3) VISUALIZE. I know everybody keeps saying that, and I didn't really listen or get it until this year, but visualize your course, how you will push up hills and flats, think about the pain you'll feel and the pain in your chest from breathing so hard and the dizziness in your head from oxygen deprivation. Visualize the end of your race and your kick. What helps me is to think "Who wants it more?" 
During the race:
4) You have to mentally prepare yourself to destroy your opponents. Don't show your pain. Accept it, but don't let them know you're hurting just as much as you. It tricks your mind and your opponent into thinking you're not actually hurting. 
5) Be ruthless. Don't be afraid to push past someone for the better spot in the course. 
6) Last of all, own the race. Not being cocky, but know this is YOUR RACE. You have to know this will be your best race yet.

Are you frightened by perfection? -Plushgun

Dat feeling when you're laughing your head off and succeeded to make another certain girl who was really sad to laugh her head off as well.
Yeah, I should like, get a grammy or something in cheering people up.
The thing is, in the process of cheering them up I am cheering myself up too. It this fabulous cycle of happiness.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Sometimes the people who smile the most are just the best at hiding their sadness.


Not really the good kind, either.

Today was my godfathers birthday and the anniversary of his passing two years ago. I miss him.
&&&I completely botched the parallel parking part of my drivers test and failed. FUCK.

So yeah.
Curling up with a book and taking a nap helped, though.
I sure did a lot of crying today though, my poor puffy eyes.

So not to sound like a badass, but one time I jaywalked in front of a police car. Just sayin'.
Also heh heh, my 69th post.. Good gosh I'm immature.