Wednesday, September 26, 2012

"It's a hill. Get over it."

Oops! I forgot to mention running!
Last weekend I got first in the region! Weuuu! So I'm leaving for state Thursday(:

whoaah whiplash.

Okay, so I was totally into this guy in my last two posts, right? Well I think I was just really into the idea of dating. And someone liking me.
But nope.

Rosa, what do you mean by whiplash?
Well, dearest reader, he was talking like we would be dating throughout basketball season and on, but no. He then proceeded to say that he wanted to take things slow. So we went to the movie, and the only thing interesting that happened was our legs touched. Fabulous. Before we went to the crappy movie, he came a braved my family for a while, but he was texting this one girl he previously had something with. The. Entire. Time.
For cereal?
And I'm pretty certain he is still into her.
So after I had talked to my parents and gotten the dating talk, etc., fallen for him, and gone on a crappy date, he told me that it was weird for him because I am a lot like my best friend, who he sees as little sister.

I know I know it sounds like I am quite eloquent with my anger, but I'm actually not that angry.
I was able to stay fatuous and jocular, and I was surprised that it didn't effect me too much. The only bugging thing is my family still asks about him.

Ooh high school. You continue to be just lovely.


Tuesday, September 18, 2012

butterflies and trembles

Sooo. This boy.

I saw him at school today and he sat next to me and put his arm around me and it was so nice.(:
But I was trying to cut out a bunch of paw prints for locker posters while he was sitting by me, and I just COULD NOT keep my hands still! I don't want to be that girl who swoons a lot. -_-
But yeah. He still wants to kiss me. Good gosh I hope I'm a good kisser.
That's about when the butterflies kick in.

Oh my.

I feel like I am some person pretending to live a typical teenage life right now.



Monday, September 17, 2012


Sooooo. A lot has happened.

First off: my race last week! It went okay, I had side stitch but still won by about 40 seconds. The course was INSAANE.
This past weekend I went with my team to Anchorage to compete with the bigger Anchorage schools, and I came in 2nd place (13 seconds behind the top ranked runner in the region right now.) It was an awesome race, and I managed to not get side stitch and came home with a new PR of 19:54, 4 seconds faster than my state time last year.

But anyways.
Someone asked me to go see a move with him yesterday.


Crazy. The thing is, he is a quite popular senior that I've always been kind of friends with and worked with him this summer, so I was (and am) a little skeptical. I asked him what brought on asking me to a movie all the sudden and he said some sweet (but gushy) thing about me being attractive and whatnot. I am a little afraid this might be some sort of bet or something he has with his friends. My teammate had something similar happen to her.

I'm kind of afraid to be too excited.
I'm also kind of afraid, because I don't really have much experience in the dating arena... I am also afraid of my parents.
And my siblings.

They are embarrassing.

While we were texting, he mentioned in a cute way that he wants to find out if I'm a good kisser or not..
Am I?
I've only kissed one other person in my lifetime, and I barely remember it I was so nervous.

Plus, there's the fact that I am awkward.
Very, very awkward.
But we'll see how things go.

Caio for now, <-- look at me, getting all poetic

Thursday, September 6, 2012

I need some more outside culture.

So I travel tomorrow for running. I am excited.
I am also proud of myself, because I have been making a honest effort to look nice every day of the week. I don't want to jump the gun a bit, but I feel like my fashion sense has increased quite a bit.
I like to look nice. It gives me confidence, even though I'm  always checking myself for anything embarrassing. But really, is it so bad to be self aware?

So I have been perusing blogs from all over the wold today (Believe me, I don''t get too much outside culture in my town of 3,500 people.) I stumbled upon this on post that was so totally honest. It went something like:
"Guys these days.  They can be awesome, cute, sweet, kind, emotional, truthful, considerate, and respectful.  Really? haha  Somewhere... in each one, there are these amazing qualities just waiting to come out.  The problem is, right now, their dream girl is Katy Perry or some Victoria Secret model.  Their favorite artist is Lil Wayne and Wiz Khalifa. They’ve stopped looking at us as sweet girls that just want a real relationship based on trust and respect (haha did you just laugh?).  We girls, at some point, felt like we had to live up to Katy Perry, or sprout angel wings to get their attention.  I think this is why some girls, who are reallycool people, change themselves, get with guys, or dress and act like their easy.

My dad told me that when he was in school, guys only acted like that because they wanted to be cool.. so they could get the girls.  Posters in their rooms, talking like pervs, disrespecting girls, and getting with anyone that would put out.  He said what all the guys really wanted (but couldn't say it) was a relationship, and they wanted a relationship with the girls in school that were the hardest to get, because they had high standards and self-respect.  Interesting huh?  You mean girls act and look easy because they think guys want that?  And guys act like pervs to be cool, but really want a respectable girl?"

I can totally relate and see where she was coming from.

I'm am sorry, most of my posts these days are about guys.
But that's what's been on my mind!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012


Whoever invented geometry and chemistry must be out to get me.
Also seriously history? Why do I have to memorize you??
I feel like I'm drowning in school. And I feel 10x dumber than usual. No joke, I am terrible at memorizing stuff. I am SO SO terrible at math. Goodness. And I seriously cannot understand science.
*Smashes face on keyboard*
*Que pity party*