Tuesday, February 25, 2014

IOU

I pride myself on being independent and strong. It's who I am. I do things by myself for myself. I don't much enjoy people commanding me to do things, or having to answer to people about my life. It's how I have always been, and how I have had to be growing up in my house. 
But, because I'm the youngest and one of the last ones in my parents household, my mom is having a lot of trouble letting go. I'm being spoiled and I don't like it, I'm not used to it, and I don't want it. I don't like having people pay for things for me, or doing things for me, but my mom insists on doing both. It's her way to get into my life and to control me. 
I hate needing her to pay for things for me. I end of having this enormous debt to my parents that I can never pay back, so I just kind of forever owe them things. It's not exactly something I desire, so I'm trying to make a lot of money to slowly separate myself from them. Which sucks, but is essential for my sanity.

Also, quick mention that this is my 100th post on here! Wow, that's a lot of my ranting and whining and thinking. :) 

2 comments:

  1. Hey! Just found your blog and its amazing! I hope my blog will be as successful as yours some day! If you ever have a spare moment come over and check out my first post on my new blog! I'd love it if you had a look :) Not much there so far but I hope to build it up over the months and years! Here's a link :) http://trinketboxblog.blogspot.co.uk/

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  2. I can totally relate with that feeling sometimes, and I think it's scarred me a little! I have one parent who is more of a mooch than anything which has led me to decline offers from people (even nice ones like to buy me a cup of coffee) and I have another who works his fingers to the bone which makes me worry about asking for anything. I know that's a bit different than your situation, but I think I understand the feeling of burden that accompanies that. And 100 posts is awesome! :) feel free to check out my "ranting and whining and thinking," too! I'm at

    ashley-ashstash.blogspot.com

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